What do you do when you are guilty, scared, angry, and helpless at the same time?
14 Jun
can’t decide!
What phone should I get?
Really can’t decide.
Red omnia is sold out because it’s limited edition. PURPLE omnia is NOT in SG! 
I would have gotten it without 2nd thought if there is 1 yesterday. But all that is left is yucky black. How boring. Anyhow, omnia 2 is coming out…but obviously it’s going to be way way way out of my budget.
BB is a tad to expensive because the plan adds up to about $50 a month! Which is totally way out of my budget although it cost the same as omnia. Plus do I really need all those function? But it would be great it I can msn/tweet/fb/fmylife/blog…. 24/7 everywhere! And the more I looked at XX blog, and hear about it from jpg zehzeh, the more I wanna get 1. BB bold is very pretty! 
Curve is not bad too!
sian sian sian.
What phone should I get!?
10 Jun
says yay to working laptop!
Finally I found time off to service my laptop.
Had the motherboard replaced but still seems to have some problem just now.
They might be coming back to check the problem again.
But still….having my laptop working again is just great!
And, it really sucks to work. I really really enjoyed staying at home today. And had been thinking what to do tomorrow until I realised tomorrow is the day I need to report to main office.
Anyone knows how to get those starhub voucher?
7 Jun
Nothing much..
I’m shifting back to the main office this coming thursday. Nothing to look forward to because I heard main office will be very busy and NO ONE leaves at 6:00pm! OMG! Jia lat la! Especially I have been clock watchig every single day since the first day of work. =.=
Lately, I’ve been thinking of getting a new gadget. Was initially thinking of PSP but decided not to because I hardly play with my DSL nowadays. Thinking of Ipod but decided not to because…my creative mp3 is STILL working. Then I think of the phone I could change. I saw the RED omnia, then I saw XX blackberry which looks very very fun! BOTH COST THE SAME! OMG! Then I decided that I haven’t got much money because I’m been spending money of clothes, clothes and more clothes. Shucks. Now I gotta go check out when my contract + mum’s contract ending before we can get any phone.
Anyway, my laptop really starts to piss me off. I’ve contacted the technician and all of the sudden, my laptop stop giving me any problem and I can use it continuously for many hours before it blank out again and restart with no problem. Then I decided to call the technician to cancel the appointment and then it starting giviing me problem. HENG I HAVEN’T CALL THEM YET!
And Silly boy is due for his grooming soon.
zzz.
I really have nothing to blog about!
22 May
Emo-ing
Sigh…
This sem results is really totally totally unexpected.
I’ve put in extra effort this sem, make sure i understand all the concepts and stuff, do many past exam papers.
But results turned out to be one of the LOWEST and LOUSIEST ever!!!
I had this naggy feeling days before. I refused to check my results at 12am on the dot because I know I will never get to see it because of lousy server that jams up at 12am or I just won’t be able to sleep later on because of the lousy grade.
I’m glad that I went to bed.
So, I checked my results in the morning and I realised my hands were actually shaking quite badly.
I should have just stick to what I said and not check my results till Sunday because I really really really had a hard time at work trying to stomach the whole fact that extra effort leads to worse results!
Sighhhhhhhhh.
I’m alright now. I’ve accepted the fact that my learning peak has long gone and is in the state of increasingly diminishing. yes, go on laugh if you want.
Results no longer means a thing to me. I no longer compare myself with others. No use comparing when I’m not the top student anymore. But I cannot deny the fact that the society thinks results are everything.
AND I CANNOT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT MY RESULTS STILL SUCKS AFTER ALL THE HARD WORK I PUT IN!
Sometimes I’m really glad that my mum never forced me to study, or to give me extra pressure to be a top student in school. But somehow, I felt very guilty. The guilt for not doing well, to make her proud, for letting her think that I’m still doing well in school. The last time I talked about my grades was my TCE Exams. I think that’s the proudest results I ever produced.
Now, I dread going to any family gathering or whatsoevery where people ask about my exams now. I don’t want to be reminded of my yucky results that probably no one else in the entire bis school can match.
Sometimes I wonder if I had really choosen the wrong course. Am I really the cut to study bis? Do I really want to be and auditor/accountant? Why the hell is yr12 accounting so easy?
There’s not much use telling me to try harder next 2 sem.
I’m in the middle of nowhere, seriously.
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